"…Tamara ..mmm..I gave her your phone number if you don't mind. I think you can really help her" my friend hesitantly reported to me. "Well, we could not get your number to her, so here is a number you could call her on" another enthusiastic friend said. this got me thinking !
Now from the top! Yesterday there was a lecture in one of Amman's Mosques and after a lecture a new Muslim telling the story of how she became a Muslim. She was a Jew, an American Jew, I did not go so my friends decided to give her my phone number. This part is actually alright, I mean yes I do speak English and yes I can offer help and guidance on religious issues. But the whole deal of her telling her story to the people in the mosque seems odd to me.
The odd part for me is for a (New) Muslim to give a lecture to (Veteran) Muslims, most of which are pious people to start with!! Shouldn't this be the other way around?! The new comers are the ones who need to learn more not us! Yes it's uplifting to hear this kind of stories, but the problem is with Muslims that don't have enough pride in their own beliefs, we should be happy for her and not happy for ourselves. We still regard the Khawaja ( Westerners) as better than us and thus when any of them adopts any thing in our lives like Islam, we are happy because we get a sense of comfort in the idea that its not only us who believe in Islam. its the Khawaja Too.
This is not the only proof and manifestation of our inferiority complex…there are many!! For example a lady I know was offered a Job in a Gulf country, but the catch is that is if she goes as a Jordanian with her Jordanian passport, she will get five times less than if she went with her American passport!! Can you believe that!! She is the same person regardless of the passport she carries. This is yet another manifestation of our inferiority complex; the question is when will we start respecting our selves and each other!! Rather than blindly and mindlessly seeking the approval of the Khawaja.
Grrrr this makes me so angry !!
That's all for now!